Do you ever wonder what it is thatkeeps uspushingforward, when it might seem that all is lost? The ancient story of Pandora's box is well known to most.A Greecian story, so many are..in which the fate of all mankind was locked in a box forbidden to be opened. Yet opened it was. And what do you think was found to be inside? Hope. Yes hope. That small word with such great control over all we do.We go on, many of us based only on the hope that tommarrow may hold a promise of something better than today.When all seems lost, hope makes it bearable and gives us a reason to persevere. To try just a bit harder, endure just a bit more, to believe though it seems impossible, in something unseen and unknown.I have found that time and again, hope has been my only drive and hope has let me down. This all sounds very droll and sad does it not? Yet this is my blog and therefore I shall say what I truely feel, not what society may deem fit. Hope is a whore, who lies to you and takes from you and in the end leaves you without money, love, respect and sometimes...your life.I have walked a long road strewn with pitt falls and tragety. A road that hope would have me believe, led to some greater place.Now I find, that having survived 40 plus years of struggle and loss my belief in hope has worn thin. The only thing I belive to be true anymore is this. Whatever is hereand now, howerever sweet it may be, is only temporary. It too, shall pass. I realize that when all is said and done, hope will leave me nothing. Just a bitter taste in my mouth and dreams that come only in sleep. Of better times and a happier life, gone but not forgotten. And the hope that these. too, shall in time vanish from my memories. Perhaps then Iwill at last find peace within.........AlleyKat